bad blogger
i completely gave up on the blog this week. i did post something at the start, some “feeling like a plastic bag” bs trying to convince myself that i was going to let my grievances go at work (the post is deleted). the only problem is, i can’t. i’m not there yet. and that’s okay. i’m going to work on it one day at a time.
i’m finding it difficult to address my issues at work because i’m constantly surrounded by colleagues or supporting clients. it’s difficult to find a moment when you’re alone or even have a private word because we’re so busy right now. instead i’m just having to have suck it up (and i feel like kirby at this rate).
i have a long weekend à la bank holiday so i’m going to do things that make me happy and when i return, i’m going to try and resolve my issues. i have two cinema screenings scheduled, i’m hoping to read some more of my book and just relax.
earlier i mentioned i deleted some posts. i felt like it was too personal and very mememe. my buddy jord (friend of the blog) helped me realise something after the fact. it’s my blog. i’ll post whatever i damn please because it’s my small space. i guess i was insecure in the moment because i was feeling down and didn’t like how raw it was. but guess what.. that’s life. i know for the most part, the internet is a lie. but there are pockets of the web that serve a good purpose, just like bearblog. i’m happy to be a part of it and i am going to embrace the good and the bad.
breaking news: human feels human emotions
am i a bad blogger? nah, i’m doing just fine. i’m learning from this experience and i need to keep going so i can look back and see how far i’ve come. let’s keep posting!